Disenchantment

“I, for my part, I guess - like all lucky, and like all Buddhas, he [Christ] must have "asked permission" for a long time, so you can go crazy.
  To be filled with divine ecstasy and be happy with it.” [Nihil]
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  Well, I have no memory of life before and my expertise are not chosen because I am clearly not one of them.

Speaking as a creature I would say that this theory we choose our trials not make much sense.

Let's assume that I am stingy and spend my entire existence so. When I desencarno as if by "charm" understand that being hard bread is a great moral failure trials and choose to redeem my dues of previous existence, who knows me become a philanthropist.

If the "charm" only occurs when I'm not in the flesh so that I embody?

If the spell can occur while incarnate then why the "High Spirits" waited my disincarnation to awaken my consciousness leaving me accumulate more debts, harming other souls?

If I am failing to take the exam for a driver's Transit Authority that will determine my next review, I have some choice as to find another driving school, but my choice or will be greatly limited.

So this story that I chose to be poor or have infantile paralysis or even being gay is a theory that needs a lot of faith and faith is something that I have not.

Have a thought is better structured if any spiritual authority to determine under what conditions will be born regardless of my will.

Let's do one more assumption: I was a tyrant in a past life, just my opinion was important, now, if I died with this thinking is that I wake up with him in another world. So an authority determines that I be born without the ability to express my opinions so that "maybe" I realize the importance of freedom of expression.

But let's stop here, from this point we enter a very complex logic that few understand. This business of choosing trials is just one more idea diseased brains to justify the suffering, more a cult of suffering.

Thankfully, our scientists do not pray for these doctrines. I learned today that a woman with AIDS can have healthy children using the right treatment. So the spirit may have chosen to be born with AIDS, but we do not let ... HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

If I believe in something, I prefer to believe that "High Spirits" would help us in curing diseases and not determining.

Some days I feel so cowardly! Previously only had fear of going to hell, now even the "sky" scares me.

Annihilation has never been so comforting ...