People feel pressured when you have a disability, are left behind in some activity that needed to go well, but I will speak at a pressure that few understand and even more difficult to handle the "pressure of efficiency."
My first school was weak and when I was transferred to a stronger I was the dumb class, but disregard this phase is for another opportunity.
In the gym I was among the best, was among the most efficient and thought everything would be fine, but only increased the pressure, everyone is always looking for the best grade.
The last straw was when I got a B + and I was laughed at!
A student took the poor, was the only perfect score and was not mine.
The comedy is that he copied all of me in a moment of distraction [he distracted me] an alternative marked by mistake that cost me half a point.
Millions of things ran through my head, but what stood out was that a "neurosis" could not continue studying had ceased to be a pleasure or a necessity, has become an irrational competition with myself, "nobody can be better than me , this is what ALL hope. "
In my meditations mathematical realized that one of the doors for the use of drugs is this need to overcome to be what the group expects you to be.
In the group, in the club, you have to be cheerful, energetic, this is what the group expects of you, you're a straight face and grimace, but with a few beers ...
Let us pause here, today I'm not gay and text may be melancholy.
Do not use drugs to stay happy and do not want to infect others with my feelings of melancholy.
"We can not choose what you feel, but we can choose how to act."
Terapia da Lógica
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